The last two weeks (and more than you wanted to know about my boobs…)

So, as I mentioned in my previous post…I have a 2 week old. I will admit that the last 2 weeks are kind of a blur. My kid, as it turns out, is a night owl like his father and prefers to sleep all day and be awake every hour after midnight. I never understood the phrase “Sleep when the baby sleeps” more than I do now!

We were only in the hospital overnight after my son’s birth, which was unexpected, but nice. We started off breastfeeding, and things were going ok. His latch was good, but it was still painful for me, and he never seemed satisfied. We had our first pedi visit the day after we left the hospital because we were discharged early, and she was concerned about his weight. (He went from 8 lbs. 2 oz. to 7 lbs. 9 oz. in 2 days.) She suggested I start pumping to see how much milk he was actually getting, and supplement with formula if he wasn’t getting 1.5-2 oz every 3 hours. So, I’m a mom for 2 days and I already feel guilty that my son is starving, and my boobs are broken. (Postpartum hormones are a bitch…)

Not knowing what else to do, I got out my pump. For the first few days (once my milk actually came in), my boobs did their job. I had 9 oz saved up that I ended up freezing because he was getting plenty to eat! I decided to reintroduce the breast. He was not happy with this and refused to latch. *sigh* It was probably for the best, though, because now my boobs can’t keep up with him. He’s eating, on average, 2 oz every 2 hours and I’m lucky if I can pump 2 oz every 3-4 hours. At our most recent pedi visit (last Wednesday), he’s back up to 8 lbs. 1 oz., but his pedi is still not completely happy with that. So, now I have a spreadsheet of each of his feedings, how much he’s eating, whether it’s breastmilk or formula…and a spreadsheet of when I’m pumping, how much I’m getting from each breast, etc.

For what it’s worth, I have a love/hate relationship with pumping. It’s less painful, that’s for sure, but it’s a pain in the ass. I have to stop what I’m doing to be a moo cow, and I need both hands to hold the bottles. (I tried to fabricate a handsfree pumping bra out of an old sports bra and that was a disaster…I may just have to suck it up and buy one.) So, if the baby starts to cry (and he ALWAYS does, right when I turn the pump on!), I have to stop, tend to him, pray he lays quietly in the bouncer for just 5 more minutes so I can get some milk for him…and in the meantime, he’s probably sucked down 2 oz of formula because he was hungry and wasn’t going to wait for the good stuff…

But at least he’s eating, and hopefully, he’ll be back where he needs to be weightwise at his next weight check in a couple of weeks! That’s all I can hope for.

On the bright side…cloth diapering is going pretty well. I only have a few XS bumGenius, so we go through those pretty quick and end up using disposables often (but we’re still on the boxes we got as gifts, so we haven’t had to buy any yet!) I have prefolds and covers too, but the prefolds are really bulky on him still, and they don’t fit with the XS covers I have. I managed to make it work with a Thirsties Size 1 unsnapped, but he looked ridiculous…lol

My August baby is 2 weeks and 4 days old, and he loves his cloth diapers!

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  1. Hugs!! Don’t beat yourself up, keep up the pumping and hope that some day soon you’ll be able to re introduce the breast. I’ll hope that’s what happens for you! Just know that whatever you choose is what is best for your family and NO ONE should make you feel guilty for it, even yourself!! DD was formula fed starting from about 1 week on (with some frozen breast milk thrown in there) and she’s in the 90%. Yes, it’s not as good as the breast, but some times it just doesn’t work out as planned, things get off track, etc.

    I commend you for doing cloth diapering from the start. I was definitely not up to that challenge.

    Keep up the good work, momma!

    • Thanks for the encouragement, Lauren!

      I know I shouldn’t feel guilty about things not going as planned. I just figured that everything else had gone so well with my pregnancy and delivery, why shouldn’t this be a piece of cake, too?! hahaha

      What’s important, though, is that he’s getting enough food. Hopefully his weight will be where it should be at his next appt, and that mommy guilt will subside… 🙂

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